Food for the Broken Hearted

I have not posted anything in about two weeks, and honestly I haven't felt much like writing--at least writing something for the public to read.  The last two weeks have been incredibly hard for me emotionally. There was an ending to a relationship, which brought a change in my life that I did not want, but knew needed to happen for the both of us.

 A broken heart and the many emotions that comes with it can reveal your addictions and your go-to crutch for handling stress.  My ultimate goal was to give it all to the Lord, however, the first thing I went to was food.  I believe that most girls who have endured heartbreaks feel entitled to binge on break up food: icrecream, chocolate, cookies, etc.  And I was one of those girls!

California Yogurt Kraze was my first stop after it happened.  I filled my cup up with macedamian nut cookie and birthday cake yogurt followed by a mound of Reese's pieces, cookie dough and cheese cake bites.  (This might sound disgusting put all together, but I promise it hit the spot) Knowing that I had an excuse to binge eat, I continued eating not necessarily all bad food, but a lot of semi-healthy food with some junk sprinkled in here and there. 

My tiramisu indulgence at La Madeleine.

At the end of the second day of what I called "eating my feelings," I allowed myself a big hunk of tiramisu from La Madeleine in Atlanta (totally worth the calories) and homemade nachos--like Mama G's does it! :) I then made up my mind that it was time to get a grip, get my will power back and put my energy into working out.  I thought I was such a strong woman who could take control of my emotions and feelings.  HA! I was so wrong...

By the week's end, I had indulged in a lot of red wine, sweets and fast food (I managed to eat Chick-fil-A AND Hardee's all within a 24-hour period). I realized that I just couldn't tell myself "you have two days to get over this" and that this was going to take time. 

I also had to figure out the healthy way to handle all that was going on in my life without going overboard one way or the other.  Believe me, it's still a work in progress! I'm trying to focus more on handing these overwhelming feelings over to God and know what I am doing now is making me a healthier person, mentally and physically.

"Consider if pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trails of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance.  Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking in anything." James 1: 2-4